Melissa Vanderwilt

“ASHA training, so far, has included two in person immersions with ayahuasca ceremonies and Kambo- we also have one more to go in November. Those ceremonies and her work really met me where I was and were really transformational because of that. And that’s one of the many things that I really appreciate about her. And I think the thing that stands out to me the most and there are numerous things and I’m going to touch on all of them— she is so unapologetically herself. There’s no performance in her! She shows up fully in her authenticity, in her femininity, which is so inspiring for me. She is deeply spiritual and she is wise beyond her years and she’s hilarious and she’s grounded and she’s totally human. She’s super relatable— she’ll help you banish old parasitic energies one moment and then the next moment she’ll be laughing with you and twerking. She is just so REAL! And I love that about her— she brings her whole self to her service and really balances the sacred and the human.

I really appreciate her vulnerability and her honesty. She’s not coming to service from a space of a pedestal like “I know way more than you…” she’s not like that at all. She’s very open to reciprocity in her containers, which I think is so important. Something else that’s very important to me is feeling like I’m in a safe space to have uncomfortable or confrontational conversations—every time we’ve gone deep where I’ve gotten triggered, we always have a huge breakthrough together. And I’ve been grateful for it every single time. She really balances humility and unabashedly celebrating herself— and this is something so valuable for anyone to learn more about because we tend to get into a habit of diminishing ourselves. She’s not down with that and she doesn’t let me do it and she doesn’t do it herself. It’s an example that women to see more.. this balance between “I can be humble” and “I can think that I’m a badass and appreciate all the things that I’ve done and how far I’ve come.” I really appreciate that she does that.

And I mentioned it earlier— her femininity. The way she embraces it and embodies it is so inspirational for me as well. We’ve had some amazing conversations about this as well, about Union, and everything she does is in devotion to Union, everything she does is rooted in Union and she’s taught me a lot about that. Union with ourselves, with each other, within the collective. Because of all she’s shared in her teachings and in our work together, I’ve come home to myself in so many ways. And I feel more connected to myself, more embodied, more empowered, and ultimately more whole because of the space she continues to hold, and the Love, the wisdom, the hilarity, the realness, and the integrity that she brings to her service. It’s been the most beautiful life shifting experiences these last couple of years, getting to work with her. I’m so glad I said yes, even though there were so many times I wanted to say no- I’m so grateful I said YES!! Kristina I love you, I’m so grateful for you— I count you as a friend, a sister, as well as a teacher. Thank you for everything!!!”

-During ASHA

“In addition to pretty intense (lifelong) depression & anxiety, I started experiencing PMDD in my early 40s. For 2 weeks every month (half of my life) I was just a shell of myself...in total despair, didn’t want to do anything or be with anyone (including my husband and son) nothing made me happy. I was on the verge constantly of a complete emotional breakdown or rage fit. SSRIs did nothing but remove all of the aspects of myself that I actually loved-- empathy, humor, curiosity. Six months ago, I finally started microdosing with Kristina’s signature blend, and can honestly say it has changed my entire life. I’m no longer on anti-anxiety or anti depression meds, my PMDD is now much more like typical PMS (which I can totally handle), and I am MUCH happier. I am kinder to myself, kinder to my husband, more present with our son. I finally feel like I have the strength to work on deconstructing my self limiting stories. It’s incredible. I am so grateful to have learned about Kristina Love and the medicine she shares. I’m literally a new person.

-After plant medicine therapy